I am standing upon the seashore. A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the ocean; she is an object of beauty and strength. I stand and watch her, until at length she hangs like a speck of white cloud just where the sea and sky mingle with each other. Then someone at my side says, “There, she is gone!” “Gone where?” Gone from my sight… that is all. Her diminished size is in me, not in...
We are brainwashed. We are sponges with eyes that absorb everything in sight from magazines to movies to books to celebrity lives covered in photoshopped lies. We are beautiful without knowing it because our society places perfection on a pedestal so no one can reach it and so we try and we try and try again, dying our hair, wearing masks to hide our imperfections, striving to be thin, and...
Thoughts After Movies
Its days like these where I become the character in the film I watch and their story becomes my reality. Okay, lets be honest, this is every movie I see. I take on the mindset of hers. My tone of voice resembles hers. Her actions, the ways she walks, the way she thinks, the way she reacts…it scares me. I know I’m not dealing with the same things she is, but I worry that I am and that makes...
May 6, 2012
How do you view food? Is it your best friend or your arch enemy? Is it something you cling to when the chaos of life is too much to handle? Is it your comfort? Is it something you’re scared of? Is it something you abuse? Is it your way of surviving? Every one of us has a different perspective on food. Mine has changed dramatically within this past week. Ever since elementary school, I can...
I seek happiness in what society claims foolish. Not large white houses nor a comfortable family of four. I do not desire what this world has to offer, but what I do is to find myself in what He has placed around me. These climbable trees. Mountains miles high. A dirty road that stretches past the horizon calling my name to walk. Fields overflowing with untamed horses to ride, bareback while...
social norms huh?
Why do we mold ourselves into the “social norms” that our society has displayed to us like the 10 commandments? Obviously not the same thing. I believe, if you want to flap your arms like a bird in the middle of a restaurant, do it. If skipping is something enjoyable to you, skip through the mall, through the airport, across campus, wherever…skip! Or even crawling for that matter,...
My Dream of His Returning
I believe that a dream is the closest comparison to what a world with no time is like. It is so fascinating how the adventure in our wild imaginations feels so lengthy but then we open our eyes to a new day thinking, what just happened? How long did that particular dream last? It seems as if we can only truly remember the last bit of the last dream before our alarm clocks go off in a tangent. An...
I’d rather have the courage to feel everything so deeply than to be completely hardened and feel nothing at all. I’m coming to the realization that this is a continuous part of life: loving, hurting, grieving, and the process of healing. As much as I long to keep my heart in a casket for it to be protected until whoever he is comes along, breaks down all barriers I’ve built, and picks up my tender...
My Prayer Tonight
His love overflows and I am going crazy because I seriously cannot handle nor comprehend the extent of this love, this eternal, infinite love that pours over every inch of my rebelling flesh. He is so present and so holy. I cannot hide this power, this moving true power that chills every hair follicle that I contain. You are so alive and just as alive today as You were when You stopped the sun...